Itsabagslife

I am counting down 10 most meaningful things that happened to me this year - 2009.

10. iWeB How could i forget them. I started my year with them. I had my very own "First Career Step" that you can call and be proud of with them. With a big staff leasing company like them - It's a dream come true for me. There i met my new buddies like Melisa, Jane, Betchay and Len. I learned wordpress through my senior php programmer pal Dex who loves to be absent rather than be late.lol. I saw photography with Mon. The Iweb-Olympics is the coolest thing ever. Sadly, Mel, Jane and I had sheer luck with them. For whatever reason we had to leave the company and file our own death-defying stunt resignation. Poofs! We're back on track now. Jane is on Makati, Mel is studying and I work on a reputable company in Search Engine Marketing and Social Media.

9. INTRO to SEO Seminar in Adamson University. I love that experience. Being able to share what i know with my co-comp sci students and returning the favor. I love that! A half day event that changed me from a stupid emo comp sci graduate who loves lurking and strolling around the campus and playing NBAlive in the computer shop sa me walkway into someone called "Sir" - Napaka kagalang galang. A Prof told me "Ito be speaker nyo? Hindi ba isa ka sa mga pasaway dati? Ganyan talaga pag nagkatrabaho..Bumabait"

People grow. Thanks Tsai. Thanks Pao-Pao :D

This is my 99th post on my personal blog guys. A lot of thanks to those names mentioned on this personal blog that i started last January. For stories, lits, emotions, videos, songs, korean movies and many more. Thanks that you guys became a part of my online journal for almost a year.

Many people think that this is a stupid thing. Writing emotions and letting people get into your life. Well all i can say is this blog became my outlet during those "EMO" days of my life. This is where i put my bitterness and sufferings. I lock it into my blog and use it as a motivation.

This is the place where i put my heart for public viewing.lol.

Many people say "If you want to forget someone., put her into literature" well i did, She's just a story now. They are just part of my short but well lived story now. I had no regrets because without all those things that i had when i started this blog i wouldn't have someone like Michel now. Those stories that taught me how to love and what's the feeling of being loved.

As i continue to grow, As i continue to write...

Hope you guys could see how beautiful life can be :D

"Life is like a box of chocolate.. You'll just never know what you're gonna get"

"Hindi ako sanay na walang boyfriend eh" -aurence said to me when we had a chalk talk last week

She is having problem on handling long distance relationship.. I passed by her on a chat and she opened up this topic. She was saying that she lost the feeling that she had before and yet she can't find the strength to let go of a love that she had before.

She said to me that she is afraid of being alone.Being left alone. She was used on having someone beside her. I heard this story before on a really close friend who is also having problem on her long distance relationship.

I heard from the mass yesterday - "Ang paghihintay ang sumusukat sa kaligayahan o kagalakan ng isang tao. Hindi sa kung ano yung natanggap nya dahil sa naghintay sya"

I told Aurence to let go. While there's love in their hearts.,let go. Don't let pain and bitterness be the turning point of their relationship. Soon she'll find answers. I remind her to be strong. And if being strong is not enough be stronger, Be more resilient. Find love from other people's heart. Don't live in missery and hate. Continue and be ready.

This was a message from Noi. Asking me to post this...Thanks tol! Keep writing!
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A lot of you may not know me as a religious person. Some of you know me as an agnostic guy. Who believes in God but has a lot of question about his own religion. This prayer might not mean anything for you. But it means a lot to me. As somebody said to me once. "You are a man and you have to stand up on your own two feet". This is my take on standing up, even though admittedly I literally shed a tear while writing this down..

Dear God,

Please help me forget her..

I still love her and it hurts so much...

Please help me let go..

"Saying the words I love you is important but may be not enough. Showing to your love one a direction in life that both of you will take is important in making love work"

In short, Love fulfill Dreams;)

500 Days of Summer is a must see movie.

"A movie for those who are in-love and in a relationship, those who aren't; those who got their hearts broken and crying, and to those who found someone that mended it"

NU ROCK Dj's quoted
"If you're in a relationship right now.,or you're searching for answers in love and life..go see this movie"

 Actors: Joseph Gordon Levitt as Tom Hansen
             Zooey Deschanel as Summer Finn



Well i wont spoil this great movie for those who haven't seen it.

Summer refers to the character Summer Fin and the movie goes through those 500 days that Tom had with Summer..So lovely movie!!!

I'm lucky enough.,I watched this movie with michel. The movie credits goes up..I whispered at her "I love you bhe" and she told me "I love you to bhe..I love you more.."...awwww!!!

Have you ever face the problem of differentiating point of endearment from pet names?

Of course point of endearment are for lovers, pet names are for your household pets.LOL

One of my friend had this thing.. She called her "Tatang" and the guy call her "Nanang", someway..somehow they are not lovers but they are great great friends. Many people thought that they would be lovers but as years goes by they were not.

I know a guy who has been inlove for years and trapped in because of expecting that these pet names are meant for something deeper. I know., the girl told me "I love him.,he is my friend" well i just laughed. Come on, you're playing someone's heart here(For me).

"Pinapaasa mo lang siya. Maaring sayo pet name lang yun pero deep inside sa kanya Point of Endearment na yun.. Marinig lang nya na tinatawag mo siya sa pet name eh pumapalakpak na tenga nya." How did i know? Naramdaman ko kaya yun dati..Motibo my friend!

Bob Ong wrote:

"Kung hindi mo mamahalin ang isang tao wag ka magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nito"

Pet names are for animals like dogs, cats, birds, etc.. Point(Terms) of endearment are for love ones.. Maybe this is something not that big but take a look at the big picture.

So

Who could forget this song!? So good to the ears. Love and Adored by many. Bring so much of the good old college days. I played this song on our store and as i watch people pass by..i knew this was a hit and not just a hit but blockbuster hit!

Many of the people sing with this song as soon as they here these words "To be is all i gotta be...And all that i see. And all that i need this time. To me the life you gave me...The day you said goodnight."

It changed the OPM Industry somehow... It lasted for about 17weeks on Myx Top Ten and OPM Chart at number 1 spot. Unbeatable!. It went Triple Platinum in may 2006 - It sold 90,000 copies.


Hale - The Day You Said Goodnight
Released April 2005

This is funny right? But more like fuck you who do you think you are!

She cried in front of me and all i can say is "Huuy..hindi pa katapusan ng mundo mo" then i grab her by her shoulders and said "Tama na..kala mo kasi kaya mo.."

She is someone so dear to me. I feel her pain. I feel her agony. She was cheated by a person that she loves. She is so stupid for that person that she still pretend that everything is going to be okay even the pain and the wounds is aggravating. She was holding her hankey that time and all i can do is get it from her hand and wipe those tears that flow non stop from her eyes. She cry and cry.

Its like hey i'm good at this.giving comfort on my friends(mostly girls) when they are in so much pain. Giving shitful advices acting like i know everything about love. Acting like I'm part of a radio station joe'd mango like guy.

But that day was different. That's the first time someone cried in front of me. Not on SMS or Call. The next thing i do is sit beside her and tell her stories about my friend that was killed on accident back then. I told her how life for me is. I told her "Hindi lang ikaw ang umiiyak ngayon kaya wag mo angkinin ang luha".. "Di pa katapusan ng lahat dahil sa niloko ka ng boyfriend mo"..

Fuck you! You don't know how much pain you gaved to her. For 1 straight week she weeps under her pillows,.her eyes were so red that she could not even go out on her room because people will laugh at her. She couldn't even get to sleep because of you! Fuck you! You don't deserve her. Fuck those guys who commit infidelities and still pretend like there's nothing wrong!

I sat beside her and told her "Tama na yan..ililibing na lng kita kung gusto para mas mapabilis ka"

Thank god she smiled a bit. 

I feel her pain. I don't know how can i ease those pain. All i can do for now is love her and put back her life into something that you didn't give her. Show care like there's no more tomorrow so she would know someone is there for her. Ill show her how to find love on other peoples heart. Ill pull her in and hide her in my jacket. So no one would see her cry. She'll be strong and grow more as she continue her so called journey -life.

I love her. I want to heal those pain that you put into her. I will. If it takes my life. I will!

In response to "asa ka naman".

Pano kung wala ng pagasa?

1. (Manliligaw Part) - Tama na. Nagpapakabulag ka na lang at umaasa ka na mayroong pagmamahal kahit wala naman talaga at never naman talaga nagkaroon ng something special sa inyo.
2. (Rebound Part) - Heart Broken siya kaya the time you expressed your love for him or her eh di sadyang naabuso nya yun kasi he or she need someone who can give comfort on his or her broken heart. "Kala moh meron pero wala.wala.wala"
3. (The Friendly Part) - Friends kayo. Nagkataon na pag tingin mo sa kanya eh tinamaan ng lintik ka. Na inlove ka. Sinira mo pagkakaibigan nyo para lang maipadama pagmamahal mo sa kanya.
4. (Broken Part) - Ikaw naman ang broken hearted. Nagkataon na dumating sya sa buhay mo at inisip mo na siya ang magliligtas sa kahibangan mo pero hindi pa din pala. Emo ka lng masyado. Feeling mo bumaba na si superman o superwoman kasi pinapasaya ka nya.
5. (Long Distance Part) - Ang layo niya. Di mo alam kung ano ba pinagkaka kaabalahan nya. Naniniwla ka pa din na mahal ka niya kahit na siya na din minsan yung nagbibigay ng dahilan para iwanan mo siya. You're trying to work on things kahit na duda ka na kasi naniniwala ka sa long distance relationship pero niloloko ka naman.
6. (Flirt Part) - "Di lahat ng magkasama nagmamahalan" malay mo flirt lang pala yung katabi mu ngayon. Tanga mo na inlove ka. Ayaw na nya syo kasi bka masaktan ka niya.
7. (Paasa Part) - Sinabihan ka niya na hintayin mo siya. For whatever reason di pala yun totoo lahat. Ano magagawa mo? Di na niya matandaan kung kelan nya sinabi yun. At anung petsa.
8. (Bitter Part) - Galit ka na sa mga guys or girls at sinasabing manloloko lang yan. Wala na matino sa mundo. gagamitin ka lang. Tapos tatapon ka na pag pinagsawaan ka na. Masakit para sayo yun. Itatanim mo sa puso mo yun at mahihirapan ka na magbukas ng pintuan para sa ibang kakatok sa puso mo.
9. (Complicated Part) - Ang daming complications niyo sa buhay. Ayaw mo na. Gusto nya pa. Gusto mo pa. Ayaw naman na nya. Hanggang maguluhan ka na at maglaho na lang bigla
10.(Family and Affiliates Part) - Ayaw ng pamilya nya sayo, Inis kapatid niya sayo. Masakit yun para sa inyo. Tapos di ka niya pinaglaban. Sinabi nya na lng - "May Magmamahal pa sayo"


Well...Just keep hoping. Someway - Somehow, you'll find someone na pag hinawakan mo yung kamay nya eh mararamdaman mo na fit kayo sa isat isa. Ang love pag dumating na sa puso mo wala na madami kwento and animations. Don't dream of a movie. Turn things into reality!. Di  pa magtatapos mundo mo pag iniwan ka niya. Gigising ka bukas me muta ka pa din sa mata mo!

Love or get lost! Asa ka ulet! 

"Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"  - Bob Ong


"Pinili mo yun. Nasarapan ka naman diba? Masakit nga lang sa huli."








Don't blame other people for causing you so much heartache in life. Don't blame your heart because you followed it. "Walang tangang puso parang awa mo na". Don't blame your dreams because you always dream of her or him. "Di sana ngayong nasaktan ka di ka na gumising. Namatay ka na lang sana. Di ka pa nakaperwisyo!" 


People make their own choices. We choose to love someone at all cost because we choose it. Keep this in mind. "Di mo masisise kahit sino pag nag - tae ka. kasi hawak mo naman ang kutsara at tinidor mo. ikaw ang pumipili ng kakainin mo. Di mo ba nakita panis na?"


You can't turn back time by saying "ifs" and "buts" grow up and take a step foot forward. face the reality that what you have is now. You made a wrong decision before then why commit another shitfull thing na di mo man lang aayusin ang gagawin mung pagpile. Love is not like "feeling butterflies circling around your stomach". It is always about a choice! And who made that stupid choice? YOU! 

"The great love i have for you
is gone, and I find my dislike for you
grows every day. When I see you,
I do not even like your face;
the one thing that I want to do is to
look at other girls. I never wanted to
marry you. Our last conversation
was very boring and has not
made me look forward to seeing you again.
You think only of yourself.
If we were married, I know that I would find
life very difficult, and I would have no
pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
to give, but it is not something that
I want to give to you. No one is more
foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
able to care for me and help me.
I sincerely want you to understand that
I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
if you think this is the end. Do not try
to answer this. Your letters are full of
things that do not interest me. You have no
true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,
I do not care for you. Please do not think that
My heart is yours. And I love you."

"READ BETWEEN THE LINES" and find out the real message that the writer want to say :) cool!

exerpt from this website :lovefatedestiny.com

What do people need?

Havaianas and Flip Flops to walk?
Fancy Car for sake of the so called Chick Magnet?
A Condo Unit or Town House for Exclusive Living?
Cool Mobile Phone for Small Talks?
iPhone and Smart Phones for Status Symbol?
Mocha Frap for Chalk Talks?
Lacoste for Clothing?
Nike or Adidas for Sporting?
Converse Chucks and Hoodies?
Perfume to wear on?
Chocolates and Cakes for Sweets?
Restos and Grills for Fine Dine?
Cigarette for Dessert?
Liquor for Sleep?
Bags and Pockets for keeping?
Yacht for Fishing?
Laptop and Notebooks for Posing?
Boys and Girls for Fling?
iPod for music?
PSP for gaming?
Bar and Clubs for SHIT-FULL things?

We forgot to live the way life suppose to be. Look around. Are you living like me? Living like them? Are you living for them? or just for yourself? Living for money and for your own survival?

Live life as simple as you can. I'm not cleaning my hands here. Doing some role playing here. Change always come from inside.

Life is just like this. LIVE OR DIE.



Find love from other peoples heart! Give love to other people. They need it! Many people need it!

Follow Me Dear MONKEY!

After Jacque Bermejo's FB account saying how happy she is that many filipino's died because of typhoon ondoy.. Another racist social media account flew.

Twitter.com's "uglyyubin"

Again. It's a somewhat identity theft here. A so called "Anti Wonder Girls" group is using this account to destroy Yubin kim of the korean pop group wonder girls.(more of this)

"I'm not wasting my time on this kind of people., I'd rather help typhoon ondoy victims than waste my time on them"



NOBODY NOBODY BUT YOU;)!

"being miserable is an option. being happy is a choice"


This entry is connected on my friendster blog entry "Its been a year of love"


Cut loose and I'm moving on... Again. I thought that loving someone is enough for you to be loved back by a person - but it's not. I was wrong. She hurt me like no one did. She threw everything acting like she's innocent. She is. It's my fault. I choose to love her even she cannot love me. At the end of the road i told her "May buhay din ako ---., Di lang sayo umiikot mundo ko" I cried that night. I was shaking hearing those words from her "Di ko na matandaan kung lumabas ba sa bibig ko yung mga salitang yun. Joke lang yun. Naniwala ka naman agad., eh bakit kung sinabi ko ba na hintayin mo ako pag 50 na ako hihintayin mo pa din ba ako? di ko alam na sineryoso mo yun" with laughs on her mouth while she was saying it naputol yung phone call.

That's it. Tears went out and my breathing became harder.

Sumandal ako saglit sa pader habang umiiyak.,pinunasan ko luha ko tapos dumiretso ako sa kwarto at humiga.

I sms her - "okay na. yun lang din naman tatanong ko sayo kung magkita man tayo....Nice joke..."
she sms me - "Nu kba. Di ko akalain talaga na sineryoso mo yun. Sori"
I replied again - "Di., okay na.. okay lang..sarap kaya..salamat"
she replied - "sori"

I cried that night. I was hurt so bad. All i can do is weep under my pillow..

The next things that happened after that...

Jowanne told me her feelings and i laughed at her.. (I felt sorry. Natatakot ako., Di ko alam kung dapat ko bang sabihin na ganun din ako sayo. I dont want to hurt you. Hindi sa hindi kita mahal. "I don't want to love a person dahil kakaiyak ko lang kagabi dahil sa love..." I care for you.,  let's take time to know each other more.


Aniyah came. She's a lie. She's a dream - for a young sweet love i was looking for.

Zeth is here. My HS partner during prom night. She told me "Hinanap kaya kita... Sana mas maaga kita hinanap" . Hinanap ko din siya even before pa. But this time around na nahanap na nya ako., I don't know what to feel. I just don't know what to feel.

Im in so much pain. I just can't love. I need to find my own way back into the world., so called love.

"Sorry kung nakasakit ako..alam ko wala akong karapatan manakit ng ibang tao dahil nasaktan ako sa kahapon ko"

Jacque Bermejo's Official Statement (citation here)


I am issuing this statement to clear my name in the current controversy in which I allegedly posted a highly insensitive and offensive message on the social networking website, Facebook, in relation to the victims of typhoon Ondoy that recently struck parts of the Philippines.

About two years ago, an anonymous source created these accounts using my identity, posting my personal details, my real pictures captioned roughly and attacking other people. Because of these incidents, I reported such abuses and sent my credentials to the administrators of such sites, particularly Facebook. I have been abused and am still being abused online in social networking websites such as Facebook, Friendster, Multiply etc.

In the early stages, I was advised by close friends to ignore the situation, saying this would simply go away. Unfortunately, it has not stopped. Hence, I filed a complaint with the Dubai Police about eight months ago hoping they could help me with my problem. Should anyone wish to check my statement, my case is still under investigation with said authorities.

Time passed and these sites continued to generate malicious, obscene and cruel messages that are widely exposed and relayed to the public under my name.

Yesterday, September 27th 2009, I received phone calls from my close friends regarding very alarming posts in the above mentioned websites that directly offended flood victims as a result of typhoon Ondoy..

These malicious statement(s) which are posted under account names Jacque or Jackie are not of my doing. It is unfortunate that such statements were maliciously attributed to me and I do sympathize and understand the adverse and somehow verbally violent reaction that has been elicited by such insensitive statements or posts. Rest assured, I have taken every legal step that can be done in this regard.

I too, have become a victim as much as those who may have lost their lives and properties to such a devastating natural calamity. This recent controversy has greatly affected my reputation, my family, and my friends. I am devastated and shocked at the extent my character, my personal information and private space have been violated.

But I love you more than anything...            


> Thanks Oli. Nice work ;)

"Mabuti ng ikaw yung tumulong...

import body.heart.soul.complexlife;

public class Complexlife extends InternalHeartAche {

private String YOU = "",ME = "";

private void Complexlife(){//start

YOU = (charm *) allocate (sizeof (myHeart));//You capture me with your charm

this.setSize(YOU);//you are in my heart now

while (LOVE !=  NULL){//while our love is not equal to zero

try{//try

DISTANCE = new DISTANCE (distance);//pair distance

CARE = new CARE(YOU);//I care for you

MISS = new MISS(YOU);//I miss you

CRAZY = new CRAZY(ME);//crazy for you

}

catch(nullpointer exception You){}//I'll catch you

if (TEARS > SMILE){//but while tears is greater than smile

try{//try

JEALOUSY++;//jealousy

HATE++; //hate  

LOVE- -; //love lessen

TIME++; //time to think  

}

catch(nullpointer exception Me){// I'll still catch you

}

}else{//or

DIE = new DIE(ME);//I might die without you

}

}

return Complexlife;//start over again

}

/*****

 *** END of Complexlife

*****/

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Thanks Oli. Great work! :D

Sinabi ko na kahapon
Ikay aking lilimutin
Ngunit ito ako ngayon
Nagbabalik ang damdamin
Makinig ka sana
Ayaw kitang pilitin
Aking winiwika
Nais ko lamang ay iyong dinggin
Di ko na alam kung ano pa ang kayang gawin
Luluhod na lang? Taimtim na mananalangin
Sana pag gising ko bukas
Wala na ang sakit na dalahin
Patuloy na mabubuhay hanggang
Luha ko ay kusang pawiin
Panahon ang tanging susukat sa akin
Dalawang bagay lang ang iisipin
Patuloy kang mahalin o tumalikod
at tuluyan kang limutin.

 "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."  -Bob Ong.

This is real right? sometimes it's hard to see things the other way around. "Di porke tinext ka nya ng gudmorning, gudaftie, gudeve, kumaen ka na, ingat ka, tc, mwah and etc., eh mauulul ka na" hehehe.. There are just people who love to care for other people. Cheesy diba? Yeah, but people like these are just born to be sweet. Sometimes.. Many times. If you fall for these kind of people better start praying now that he or she is not someone just bugging around and trying to play people's heart. But they love playing people's heart and at the end of the day you fall, you loose. Maybe because your a somewhat kind of a stupid person who believe in simple words. I did believed before. I thought it was a somewhat "Motibo" but i was wrong. All she said to me is "Mabait lang talaga ako", What did i do? "Napalunok na lang ako at sinabi sa sarili ko - sobrang bait mo naman" 


Naisip ko tuloy:
1. Mura lang ang unli kaya masarap makipagtxtmate ng madaming madami (Kiti-kitxt type)
2. Me Sun Cellular naman. Tawag to the Max.(Sunnatic Type)
3. Mura lng ang rent sa computer shop. Mag YM ka man o mag FS ka o Facebook pa o twitter pa. So Affordable. (Internet Man)
4. Masarap mang Flirt lalo nat uto-uto naman ung tao.(Filthy Flirt)
5. Masarap ka kasama kasi mahilig ka manlibre. Libre mo ako ha! DQ!hahaha (Libre Type)
6. Masarap mang gate crush ng YM. Open mo account mo ng madami "ASL" to the max ka lang.(ASL dido)
7. Masarap mag pa asa. Lalo na't wala naman talagang pagasa! (Paasa Type)
8. "Wala akong magagawa masarap kaya yung me nagmamahal sayo" Kahit madami! (Lovapaloozer)
9. Lakad sa mall. Turo. Papa-ble. (Sugar Dad/Mom Type).
10. Masarap manakit. lalo na't nasaktan ako dati (Revenge Type)


Isa ka ba sa mga to? Asaness ka naman! Hahaha

"Ooops. Ang Cheesy nyo. Iba BLOG ko yan! lol"

I had so much young love the day that you walked into my life. A young love that ive been longing for. I had sleepless nights because of you. I remember the night that you asked me if im a good kisser and all i answered is "NO", hahahah. Because im really not. May be.

Your young love is so sweet that ants would be begging for our sweets. I love the way you love me. I love when call me "baby". lol. I dont know if you're just playing around or any. I love those nights wherein ill fall asleep saying and hearing "I love you baby" then you'll say "Lapit ka dito" and "Yakapin mo ko". I love those nights that you act like a child not wanting me to hang up the phone and you want to sleep beside me. I love it when you told me that you've been sharing stories of me to mom.

You have so much young love in your heart that every guy will be begging for. Im happy,. you fill my heart with so much hapiness. Im so blessed.

Though sometimes your young love scare the hell out of me. Im afraid that soon this young love will grow and just leave. I want to see you grow. Be a step behind you and catch you everytime you fall.

May be i have such a good talent on making threading these sweet words that a young heart would fall into. May be. But i was never loved back the way that you are loving me now. So young, So sweet. So fresh. I want you to know how thankful i am that you were there. I fall for someone and write immortal words. That someone is you Annea.

Your young sweet love is longingly.

I fall for you Annea but Annea never existed on this dimension. Annea was just a part of my desire for a young love experience. Soon ill meet Annea and be with her. Soon ill sit on her arms and rest on her peacefully.

Im suffering from love. A love that was never real and could only happen in my dreams.

Sino ba itong kausap ko
Dinig ko ang tibok ng puso mo
Isa, dalawa, tatlo
Kamay ko ay hawakan mo
Di man kita nakikita
Akin namang nadarama
Tayo'y iisa, nangangarap
Pagtagpuin at magkasama
Tanaw ko na ang bukas
Sanay hindi na ito magwakas
Panaginip man o hindi
Ikaw lang ang tanging sanhi
Buhay ko'y naging makahulugan
Dinggin mo, ikaw lang ang
Tanging dahilan

Your Letter in my Frozen Hand
by : Oliver Lundag




"I hold your letter in my frozen hand.. staring on the lines.. reminisce each and every time. Its freezing...i need your warm hands"


                                                  -bags



I hold your letter in my frozen hand
The last line was long, as long as it burns
My look carries on
With every word another feeling dies
I'm left here in the dark, no memories of you
I close my eyes, it's killing me
We die when love is dead, it's killing me
We lost a dream we never had
The world in silence should forever feel alone
'Cause we are gone and we will never overcome, it's over now
Vultures are waiting for what's left of us
What can we take? It all has no worth
If we lose our trust
They're coming closer, want you and me
I can feel their claws, let me go now
Try to break free, it's killing me
We die when love is dead, it's killing me
We lost a dream we never had
The world in silence should forever feel alone
'Cause we are gone and we will never overcome
It's over now, now, now

Astig! lol..Thanks dude for allowing me to post one of your masterpiece! nice writing.

"Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo."



"Tada kimi wo aishiteru. Tada sorekadda yokatta noni"

Craving for perfect song lines that could slit your throat and cut your wrist?lol. Take some dosage of DC, wear a pair of sneakers. Sing and Die while listening to songs of Dashboard Confessionals! sOOoo EMO!


"We are the only ones who feel it. Tonight we drink. Tonight we dance. We are the last ones who can hear it...heaven is here" -heaven here

"You get one look. I'll show you something that the knife took. A bit too early for my own good. Now let's not speak of it again"  -dont wait

Early morning, may be around 645am. Hehe.. Abad Santos. Maluwang naman yung tren. Skip train kasi. Skip ba o Escape? Bahala na kayo.hehehe.. Para sa akin, Skip train.

Nakaupo ako kasi nga maluwang diba. Tayuman. Me magandang babae na sumakay. May be around 5 flat lang ang height nya. Pagtititigan mo sya maganda sya. Lalo na para sa akin. hehehe. Simple lang naman ang suot niya. "Full Black" naka converse na sneakers pa.. hehe. "Emo Punk" eka nga nila. Maputi siya kaya bagay naman. Nakapusod buhok astig tapos yung porma nya parang pang korean ung may vest. este ewan ko ba kung anung tawag dun. Tapos me nakapasak sa tenga nya. Earphone.

Doroteo Jose., Madaming sumakay sa doroteo. Umusog sya ng ilang hakbang papalapit sa akin. Naririnig ko na yung tugtog niya. Tinitingnan ko siya para siyang bumubulong. Kumakanta pala. Mejo na palakas. "This heart it beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours". Aba My Heart ng Paramore. Astig.

Pedro Gil. Medyo maluwang na. Bumaba na si miss emo. Napansin ko me nakatali na bandage sa left wrist nya. hehe. "shit emo nga"


Quirino. Naisip ko yung mga araw na ganun din ako. Tinititigan ko siya at nakita ko na ganun din ako dati. Tanging mga kanta lang ang pakiramdam ko na nakakaintindi sa nararamdaman ko. Maaring Until now me ganun pa akong natitira ung SO EMO na part.. Sa puso at isip - emo. Hehehe. Nararamdaman ko yung lungkot niya. Alam mo naman mga emo. Kita agad, Hehehe..

Gil Puyat. Babaaan na. Sakay ng bus. Naisip ko. Di lang pala ako ang malungkot sa mundo. Sasabihin ko sana sa kanya "Hindi lang ikaw ang emo" wag mo sirain buhay mo dahil lang sa pag eemo. Miserable ka na nga ppka miserable ka pa. Naisip ko. Oo galit ako sa kanya kasi lahat binigay ko pero parang wala pa din yun para sa kanya pero ano pang magagawa ko eh sa totoo namang mahal ko siya? mahal ko lahat ng tungkol sa kanya.? kahit masakit?. Ganun talaga ang buhay.

Well take this


"Hindi lang ikaw ang emo sa mundo kaya ayusin mo buhay mo. Pakamatay ka na lng kung di mo nakikita na me mga tao pa sa paligid mo na handang magmahal sayo. Don't be a looser. I mean - don't loose hope. Soon you'll get what you deserve. God has always something good in reserve. Hope and Pray."

Paseo na. Baba na ako. Isusulat ko na lng ang mga salitang ito sa blog ko. Sana mabasa mo;)