Itsabagslife

545pm (Long day at the office)

-Going home. I always do this, the train shit.
I got tons of work left for
tomorrow on my table.(sigh)

607pm (The Train Shit)

- There's something different today as i arrive
in the train station. It's a bit crowded. Looks like
someone threw a party on the train station. lol
as if i care,

610pm (The Waiting)

- Waiting for the train
- Sitting on a bench and roaming my eyes around.
As if I'm new to this.

612pm (The Dreaming)

- I remember those days, When we were still in
school. I usually do this. Waiting for her on this
very same train station.
-She'll always say "Kanina ka pa?" Acting like that she care.
- Ill answer "Ngayon2 lng, 5 mins"(Stupid)

617pm (The Chances)

- When we ride the train. It's always like i won on a lottery.
I get the chance to stand so close to her that i could smell her
fumes that has become more of a drug to me. I get the chance
to stare on her beautiful brown eyes. I get the chance to tell her
that i love her. All she can reply is a tiny slap on the face.
Then She'll say "Tumigil ka jan".
- I love her so much. I always come back to those 15 mins train ride with her.

625pm (The truth)

- Everytime that train ride ends. Every dream ends.
- "Minsan pauunahin niya ako, minsan pauunahin ko siya"
(scared to get caught)

637pm (The Shocking Truth)

- So much of my day dreaming. It's been 30 mins.
Where's the fucking train that i've been waiting. Did i get
caught day dreaming and million of trains passed by?(sigh)

- I heard an announcement from a somewhat voice
"Code Red", about 5 times.
then. "please stay away from the yellow lane"

- What's with the party over there? As i try to see what
the hell is going on there...
"Excuse me" i said

- I saw a body lying on the floor. Someone said
"Nagpakamatay, wala yata sa sarili,. nakatulala lang eh.
Tas biglang tumalon o nahulog nung paparating na yung tren"

645 (End)

- It was me. My breathing became much harder.

"What if our hands are meant to fit like this?"

Its 2:45, saturday afternoon
I'm sitting next to a girl whom i always wanted to be with.
It's almost been a year since i last saw her.

All the scenes were very fast
All i can do is stare on her face
look into her eyes
smell her scent...(sigh)

Until i get the chance. I hold her hands again. I remember that day, i asked her if i can hold her hand and she refused.


Now I began asking my self again (While holding her hands). If there's no love why would you let me hold your hands again?

She's my everything, She's my heroine. My love for her was so strong that i couldn't stay away anymore. Even she is not around i keep fallin and fallin for her. Holding her hand and Experiencing those things makes me live a year more than anybody. She is my lifeline.

I'm playing with her fingers as if it was mine. I whispered to her.

"I love you. All i can do is love you and love you."

She kept quiet hearing those words. Suddenly she told me something,

"Hintayin mo ako bags, pag 30 na ako"

I smiled a bit when i heard those words from her, Yeah, i know her family. I know the situation on their family. All i can do is put my head on her shoulder (facing her shoudler) Smelling her fumes but actually i was kissing her shoulder - unitentionally. I didn't asked her anything when i heard those words. I just said this to my self (I didn't asked you to marry me? What i am asking you is to love me. just love me the way i am loving you today. I dont know tomorrow, I can't even come back for yesterday.).

She is my life. If i would have a house i would have it through our shared dreams and thoughts of having it. I love her so.

And so while sitting on a couch we had an exchange of stories.

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3:45. We got to keep going and so we left off.

Now It's back to reality. I don't know what would be the next story.