Itsabagslife

Now i know.

Ill change my life for good.
I wont cry for someone like you again.
Ill never bother to ask you again.
I wont ask for a kiss again.
I wont ask for promises.
Ill be forgetful.
I wont wait on the train station again.
Ill be stronger than ever.
Ill Change my phone number again.
Ill throw away all those pictures of yours.
I wont dream of you again.
I wont put you on my plans.
I wont listen to the songs that reminds me of you.
Neither do i be singing.
I wont pass by on our places again.
You'll miss those candles we had.
I wont be saying your name again.

I love you but now all i can do is hate you.

"What if our hands are meant to fit like this?"

Its 2:45, saturday afternoon
I'm sitting next to a girl whom i always wanted to be with.
It's almost been a year since i last saw her.

All the scenes were very fast
All i can do is stare on her face
look into her eyes
smell her scent...(sigh)

Until i get the chance. I hold her hands again. I remember that day, i asked her if i can hold her hand and she refused.


Now I began asking my self again (While holding her hands). If there's no love why would you let me hold your hands again?

She's my everything, She's my heroine. My love for her was so strong that i couldn't stay away anymore. Even she is not around i keep fallin and fallin for her. Holding her hand and Experiencing those things makes me live a year more than anybody. She is my lifeline.

I'm playing with her fingers as if it was mine. I whispered to her.

"I love you. All i can do is love you and love you."

She kept quiet hearing those words. Suddenly she told me something,

"Hintayin mo ako bags, pag 30 na ako"

I smiled a bit when i heard those words from her, Yeah, i know her family. I know the situation on their family. All i can do is put my head on her shoulder (facing her shoudler) Smelling her fumes but actually i was kissing her shoulder - unitentionally. I didn't asked her anything when i heard those words. I just said this to my self (I didn't asked you to marry me? What i am asking you is to love me. just love me the way i am loving you today. I dont know tomorrow, I can't even come back for yesterday.).

She is my life. If i would have a house i would have it through our shared dreams and thoughts of having it. I love her so.

And so while sitting on a couch we had an exchange of stories.

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3:45. We got to keep going and so we left off.

Now It's back to reality. I don't know what would be the next story.

Girl: Pno poh mag save sa turbo C?
Girl: What File Extension?
Boy: .txt po yun pag cne save.
Girl: Ok. Sure ka ha?
(After 3 Minutes)
Girl: Ayaw po eh. Pno po ba?
Girl: gnto b? boy.txt?
Boy: opo
Girl: Ayaw eh. San po kya error?
Boy: Try nyo po bka me problema
sa directories?
Girl: So ganito po ba yun dpt?
girl/boy.txt?
(After 3 minutes)
Girl: Ayaw p din po
Boy: Hndi po tlga ggna yan kasi
di na pwede pag samhin c girl at
boy bilang iisa
Girl: haha. adik. ayaw tlga gumana
Boy: eh magkahiwlay na si boy and girl
eh kht ano p gwin mo d n nga ggna yan.
Girl: haha. oo nga dti na ung program ntin n un eh
Boy: ahaha. pwede p nmn e de bug ule=)
Girl: wag na. dnt bring the past back anymore.
ahaha kanta?
Boy: hehe. mahal n mahal p dn nmn po kta eh
di po un nagbago.
Girl: ahaha.bolero
Boy: di ah. lahat nmn alam yun eh. how much
i love you and care for you.
Girl: Opo. lam ko un. Thanks so much.
Boy: magiingat ka po prti ha. if ever you need me
jst say a word. sa likod mo lng ako.
Girl: Ok. Tnx.
Boy: Tnx lng? wlang kiss? ahaha
Girl: Ngek. Mwah!
Boy: Ahaha. Tnx. lab yu po!


For the reader's of this post:
Can you see the picture?
Is there any love left for the both of them? In What level?
Should the Boy keep his words?
Do you believe in falling in love with someone even he/she is
not around?

Damn' I'm Suffering from her. Receiving one SMS from her
makes my whole year complete=) This SMS is for real. Believe me.
SMS on iphone are meant to be in chat like form.

If only holding
you at the hand is
enough.,I would grab
hold it

This never ending
tears could have not
happened, if only
i forged ever chances.

Now we're so so
broken, i don't know if
i can fix this, if we can
fix this.

Our promises
we're just a burden
Now i don't know
what's next to
happen.

I told you that ill love you
through every changing
seasons, but now i
can't find any single
reason.

I thought that this
love would last,
but now its all written
as scars from the past.

P.S. My love for you was so strong,
it could even destroy me=(