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10 is to 100 (100th Blog Entry Special)

I am counting down 10 most meaningful things that happened to me this year - 2009.

10. iWeB How could i forget them. I started my year with them. I had my very own "First Career Step" that you can call and be proud of with them. With a big staff leasing company like them - It's a dream come true for me. There i met my new buddies like Melisa, Jane, Betchay and Len. I learned wordpress through my senior php programmer pal Dex who loves to be absent rather than be I saw photography with Mon. The Iweb-Olympics is the coolest thing ever. Sadly, Mel, Jane and I had sheer luck with them. For whatever reason we had to leave the company and file our own death-defying stunt resignation. Poofs! We're back on track now. Jane is on Makati, Mel is studying and I work on a reputable company in Search Engine Marketing and Social Media.

9. INTRO to SEO Seminar in Adamson University. I love that experience. Being able to share what i know with my co-comp sci students and returning the favor. I love that! A half day event that changed me from a stupid emo comp sci graduate who loves lurking and strolling around the campus and playing NBAlive in the computer shop sa me walkway into someone called "Sir" - Napaka kagalang galang. A Prof told me "Ito be speaker nyo? Hindi ba isa ka sa mga pasaway dati? Ganyan talaga pag nagkatrabaho..Bumabait"

People grow. Thanks Tsai. Thanks Pao-Pao :D

99th Post - Thanks

This is my 99th post on my personal blog guys. A lot of thanks to those names mentioned on this personal blog that i started last January. For stories, lits, emotions, videos, songs, korean movies and many more. Thanks that you guys became a part of my online journal for almost a year.

Many people think that this is a stupid thing. Writing emotions and letting people get into your life. Well all i can say is this blog became my outlet during those "EMO" days of my life. This is where i put my bitterness and sufferings. I lock it into my blog and use it as a motivation.

This is the place where i put my heart for public

Many people say "If you want to forget someone., put her into literature" well i did, She's just a story now. They are just part of my short but well lived story now. I had no regrets because without all those things that i had when i started this blog i wouldn't have someone like Michel now. Those stories that taught me how to love and what's the feeling of being loved.

As i continue to grow, As i continue to write...

Hope you guys could see how beautiful life can be :D

"Life is like a box of chocolate.. You'll just never know what you're gonna get"

Hindi Sanay

"Hindi ako sanay na walang boyfriend eh" -aurence said to me when we had a chalk talk last week

She is having problem on handling long distance relationship.. I passed by her on a chat and she opened up this topic. She was saying that she lost the feeling that she had before and yet she can't find the strength to let go of a love that she had before.

She said to me that she is afraid of being alone.Being left alone. She was used on having someone beside her. I heard this story before on a really close friend who is also having problem on her long distance relationship.

I heard from the mass yesterday - "Ang paghihintay ang sumusukat sa kaligayahan o kagalakan ng isang tao. Hindi sa kung ano yung natanggap nya dahil sa naghintay sya"

I told Aurence to let go. While there's love in their hearts.,let go. Don't let pain and bitterness be the turning point of their relationship. Soon she'll find answers. I remind her to be strong. And if being strong is not enough be stronger, Be more resilient. Find love from other people's heart. Don't live in missery and hate. Continue and be ready.

Prayer for her

This was a message from Noi. Asking me to post this...Thanks tol! Keep writing!

A lot of you may not know me as a religious person. Some of you know me as an agnostic guy. Who believes in God but has a lot of question about his own religion. This prayer might not mean anything for you. But it means a lot to me. As somebody said to me once. "You are a man and you have to stand up on your own two feet". This is my take on standing up, even though admittedly I literally shed a tear while writing this down..

Dear God,

Please help me forget her..

I still love her and it hurts so much...

Please help me let go..

If this is a dream


by jaysonbagio

If this is a dream I don't want to wake up.
But she is greater than my dream.
The way she holds my hand is real
I can see the future means

500 Days of Summer


"Saying the words I love you is important but may be not enough. Showing to your love one a direction in life that both of you will take is important in making love work"

In short, Love fulfill Dreams;)

500 Days of Summer is a must see movie.

"A movie for those who are in-love and in a relationship, those who aren't; those who got their hearts broken and crying, and to those who found someone that mended it"

NU ROCK Dj's quoted
"If you're in a relationship right now.,or you're searching for answers in love and life..go see this movie"

 Actors: Joseph Gordon Levitt as Tom Hansen
             Zooey Deschanel as Summer Finn

Well i wont spoil this great movie for those who haven't seen it.

Summer refers to the character Summer Fin and the movie goes through those 500 days that Tom had with Summer..So lovely movie!!!

I'm lucky enough.,I watched this movie with michel. The movie credits goes up..I whispered at her "I love you bhe" and she told me "I love you to bhe..I love you more.."...awwww!!!

Point of Endearment o Pet Name?

Have you ever face the problem of differentiating point of endearment from pet names?

Of course point of endearment are for lovers, pet names are for your household pets.LOL

One of my friend had this thing.. She called her "Tatang" and the guy call her "Nanang", someway..somehow they are not lovers but they are great great friends. Many people thought that they would be lovers but as years goes by they were not.

I know a guy who has been inlove for years and trapped in because of expecting that these pet names are meant for something deeper. I know., the girl told me "I love him.,he is my friend" well i just laughed. Come on, you're playing someone's heart here(For me).

"Pinapaasa mo lang siya. Maaring sayo pet name lang yun pero deep inside sa kanya Point of Endearment na yun.. Marinig lang nya na tinatawag mo siya sa pet name eh pumapalakpak na tenga nya." How did i know? Naramdaman ko kaya yun dati..Motibo my friend!

Bob Ong wrote:

"Kung hindi mo mamahalin ang isang tao wag ka magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nito"

Pet names are for animals like dogs, cats, birds, etc.. Point(Terms) of endearment are for love ones.. Maybe this is something not that big but take a look at the big picture.


by Jayson Bagio

I am having so
much love for her
Indeed, she is the
answer to my prayer

I stare at her and
she smiles
oh i knew waiting
for her is worthwhile

I stand close to
her and smell her fumes
Flowers of summer
I love the way it blooms

I lean on her and she
began to smile
She whispered at me
I run a thousand mile

I told her i love her
so and she told
me, i waited for you
I love you so.

As long as you're near


"I love her and She loves me...and that will always be"

As long as you're near
by Cristy Smith

The first time we met, I could see,
That you and I, were meant to be.
Your eyes were so gentle, your smile so true,
When you first held my hand, I just knew.

Now the time has gone by, through laughter and tears,
These days I shall cherish, for years upon years.
Those memories we have, shall never fade,
For those are the steps, that we have made.

That was the past, the future is near,
I anxiously wait, for what will appear.
New homes, more laughter, and children so dear,
Everything will be wonderful, as long as you're near

Excerpt came from this site. Here

The Day You Said Goodnight

Who could forget this song!? So good to the ears. Love and Adored by many. Bring so much of the good old college days. I played this song on our store and as i watch people pass by..i knew this was a hit and not just a hit but blockbuster hit!

Many of the people sing with this song as soon as they here these words "To be is all i gotta be...And all that i see. And all that i need this time. To me the life you gave me...The day you said goodnight."

It changed the OPM Industry somehow... It lasted for about 17weeks on Myx Top Ten and OPM Chart at number 1 spot. Unbeatable!. It went Triple Platinum in may 2006 - It sold 90,000 copies.

Hale - The Day You Said Goodnight
Released April 2005

She cry and cry

This is funny right? But more like fuck you who do you think you are!

She cried in front of me and all i can say is "Huuy..hindi pa katapusan ng mundo mo" then i grab her by her shoulders and said "Tama na..kala mo kasi kaya mo.."

She is someone so dear to me. I feel her pain. I feel her agony. She was cheated by a person that she loves. She is so stupid for that person that she still pretend that everything is going to be okay even the pain and the wounds is aggravating. She was holding her hankey that time and all i can do is get it from her hand and wipe those tears that flow non stop from her eyes. She cry and cry.

Its like hey i'm good at comfort on my friends(mostly girls) when they are in so much pain. Giving shitful advices acting like i know everything about love. Acting like I'm part of a radio station joe'd mango like guy.

But that day was different. That's the first time someone cried in front of me. Not on SMS or Call. The next thing i do is sit beside her and tell her stories about my friend that was killed on accident back then. I told her how life for me is. I told her "Hindi lang ikaw ang umiiyak ngayon kaya wag mo angkinin ang luha".. "Di pa katapusan ng lahat dahil sa niloko ka ng boyfriend mo"..

Fuck you! You don't know how much pain you gaved to her. For 1 straight week she weeps under her pillows,.her eyes were so red that she could not even go out on her room because people will laugh at her. She couldn't even get to sleep because of you! Fuck you! You don't deserve her. Fuck those guys who commit infidelities and still pretend like there's nothing wrong!

I sat beside her and told her "Tama na yan..ililibing na lng kita kung gusto para mas mapabilis ka"

Thank god she smiled a bit. 

I feel her pain. I don't know how can i ease those pain. All i can do for now is love her and put back her life into something that you didn't give her. Show care like there's no more tomorrow so she would know someone is there for her. Ill show her how to find love on other peoples heart. Ill pull her in and hide her in my jacket. So no one would see her cry. She'll be strong and grow more as she continue her so called journey -life.

I love her. I want to heal those pain that you put into her. I will. If it takes my life. I will!

Quoted Lines


- i love you bhe"
Thanks for the love...

Asa ka ulet?

In response to "asa ka naman".

Pano kung wala ng pagasa?

1. (Manliligaw Part) - Tama na. Nagpapakabulag ka na lang at umaasa ka na mayroong pagmamahal kahit wala naman talaga at never naman talaga nagkaroon ng something special sa inyo.
2. (Rebound Part) - Heart Broken siya kaya the time you expressed your love for him or her eh di sadyang naabuso nya yun kasi he or she need someone who can give comfort on his or her broken heart. "Kala moh meron pero wala.wala.wala"
3. (The Friendly Part) - Friends kayo. Nagkataon na pag tingin mo sa kanya eh tinamaan ng lintik ka. Na inlove ka. Sinira mo pagkakaibigan nyo para lang maipadama pagmamahal mo sa kanya.
4. (Broken Part) - Ikaw naman ang broken hearted. Nagkataon na dumating sya sa buhay mo at inisip mo na siya ang magliligtas sa kahibangan mo pero hindi pa din pala. Emo ka lng masyado. Feeling mo bumaba na si superman o superwoman kasi pinapasaya ka nya.
5. (Long Distance Part) - Ang layo niya. Di mo alam kung ano ba pinagkaka kaabalahan nya. Naniniwla ka pa din na mahal ka niya kahit na siya na din minsan yung nagbibigay ng dahilan para iwanan mo siya. You're trying to work on things kahit na duda ka na kasi naniniwala ka sa long distance relationship pero niloloko ka naman.
6. (Flirt Part) - "Di lahat ng magkasama nagmamahalan" malay mo flirt lang pala yung katabi mu ngayon. Tanga mo na inlove ka. Ayaw na nya syo kasi bka masaktan ka niya.
7. (Paasa Part) - Sinabihan ka niya na hintayin mo siya. For whatever reason di pala yun totoo lahat. Ano magagawa mo? Di na niya matandaan kung kelan nya sinabi yun. At anung petsa.
8. (Bitter Part) - Galit ka na sa mga guys or girls at sinasabing manloloko lang yan. Wala na matino sa mundo. gagamitin ka lang. Tapos tatapon ka na pag pinagsawaan ka na. Masakit para sayo yun. Itatanim mo sa puso mo yun at mahihirapan ka na magbukas ng pintuan para sa ibang kakatok sa puso mo.
9. (Complicated Part) - Ang daming complications niyo sa buhay. Ayaw mo na. Gusto nya pa. Gusto mo pa. Ayaw naman na nya. Hanggang maguluhan ka na at maglaho na lang bigla
10.(Family and Affiliates Part) - Ayaw ng pamilya nya sayo, Inis kapatid niya sayo. Masakit yun para sa inyo. Tapos di ka niya pinaglaban. Sinabi nya na lng - "May Magmamahal pa sayo"

Well...Just keep hoping. Someway - Somehow, you'll find someone na pag hinawakan mo yung kamay nya eh mararamdaman mo na fit kayo sa isat isa. Ang love pag dumating na sa puso mo wala na madami kwento and animations. Don't dream of a movie. Turn things into reality!. Di  pa magtatapos mundo mo pag iniwan ka niya. Gigising ka bukas me muta ka pa din sa mata mo!

Love or get lost! Asa ka ulet! 

Pinili mo yun

"Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"  - Bob Ong

"Pinili mo yun. Nasarapan ka naman diba? Masakit nga lang sa huli."

Don't blame other people for causing you so much heartache in life. Don't blame your heart because you followed it. "Walang tangang puso parang awa mo na". Don't blame your dreams because you always dream of her or him. "Di sana ngayong nasaktan ka di ka na gumising. Namatay ka na lang sana. Di ka pa nakaperwisyo!

People make their own choices. We choose to love someone at all cost because we choose it. Keep this in mind. "Di mo masisise kahit sino pag nag - tae ka. kasi hawak mo naman ang kutsara at tinidor mo. ikaw ang pumipili ng kakainin mo. Di mo ba nakita panis na?"

You can't turn back time by saying "ifs" and "buts" grow up and take a step foot forward. face the reality that what you have is now. You made a wrong decision before then why commit another shitfull thing na di mo man lang aayusin ang gagawin mung pagpile. Love is not like "feeling butterflies circling around your stomach". It is always about a choice! And who made that stupid choice? YOU! 

Between The Lines

"The great love i have for you
is gone, and I find my dislike for you
grows every day. When I see you,
I do not even like your face;
the one thing that I want to do is to
look at other girls. I never wanted to
marry you. Our last conversation
was very boring and has not
made me look forward to seeing you again.
You think only of yourself.
If we were married, I know that I would find
life very difficult, and I would have no
pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
to give, but it is not something that
I want to give to you. No one is more
foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
able to care for me and help me.
I sincerely want you to understand that
I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
if you think this is the end. Do not try
to answer this. Your letters are full of
things that do not interest me. You have no
true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,
I do not care for you. Please do not think that
My heart is yours. And I love you."

"READ BETWEEN THE LINES" and find out the real message that the writer want to say :) cool!

exerpt from this website

People Need

What do people need?

Havaianas and Flip Flops to walk?
Fancy Car for sake of the so called Chick Magnet?
A Condo Unit or Town House for Exclusive Living?
Cool Mobile Phone for Small Talks?
iPhone and Smart Phones for Status Symbol?
Mocha Frap for Chalk Talks?
Lacoste for Clothing?
Nike or Adidas for Sporting?
Converse Chucks and Hoodies?
Perfume to wear on?
Chocolates and Cakes for Sweets?
Restos and Grills for Fine Dine?
Cigarette for Dessert?
Liquor for Sleep?
Bags and Pockets for keeping?
Yacht for Fishing?
Laptop and Notebooks for Posing?
Boys and Girls for Fling?
iPod for music?
PSP for gaming?
Bar and Clubs for SHIT-FULL things?

We forgot to live the way life suppose to be. Look around. Are you living like me? Living like them? Are you living for them? or just for yourself? Living for money and for your own survival?

Live life as simple as you can. I'm not cleaning my hands here. Doing some role playing here. Change always come from inside.

Life is just like this. LIVE OR DIE.

Find love from other peoples heart! Give love to other people. They need it! Many people need it!

uglyyubin - Twitter Racist


Follow Me Dear MONKEY!

After Jacque Bermejo's FB account saying how happy she is that many filipino's died because of typhoon ondoy.. Another racist social media account flew.'s "uglyyubin"

Again. It's a somewhat identity theft here. A so called "Anti Wonder Girls" group is using this account to destroy Yubin kim of the korean pop group wonder girls.(more of this)

"I'm not wasting my time on this kind of people., I'd rather help typhoon ondoy victims than waste my time on them"


Sorry (Its been 2 years of love)

"being miserable is an option. being happy is a choice"

This entry is connected on my friendster blog entry "Its been a year of love"

Cut loose and I'm moving on... Again. I thought that loving someone is enough for you to be loved back by a person - but it's not. I was wrong. She hurt me like no one did. She threw everything acting like she's innocent. She is. It's my fault. I choose to love her even she cannot love me. At the end of the road i told her "May buhay din ako ---., Di lang sayo umiikot mundo ko" I cried that night. I was shaking hearing those words from her "Di ko na matandaan kung lumabas ba sa bibig ko yung mga salitang yun. Joke lang yun. Naniwala ka naman agad., eh bakit kung sinabi ko ba na hintayin mo ako pag 50 na ako hihintayin mo pa din ba ako? di ko alam na sineryoso mo yun" with laughs on her mouth while she was saying it naputol yung phone call.

That's it. Tears went out and my breathing became harder.

Sumandal ako saglit sa pader habang umiiyak.,pinunasan ko luha ko tapos dumiretso ako sa kwarto at humiga.

I sms her - "okay na. yun lang din naman tatanong ko sayo kung magkita man tayo....Nice joke..."
she sms me - "Nu kba. Di ko akalain talaga na sineryoso mo yun. Sori"
I replied again - "Di., okay na.. okay lang..sarap kaya..salamat"
she replied - "sori"

I cried that night. I was hurt so bad. All i can do is weep under my pillow..

The next things that happened after that...

Jowanne told me her feelings and i laughed at her.. (I felt sorry. Natatakot ako., Di ko alam kung dapat ko bang sabihin na ganun din ako sayo. I dont want to hurt you. Hindi sa hindi kita mahal. "I don't want to love a person dahil kakaiyak ko lang kagabi dahil sa love..." I care for you.,  let's take time to know each other more.

Aniyah came. She's a lie. She's a dream - for a young sweet love i was looking for.

Zeth is here. My HS partner during prom night. She told me "Hinanap kaya kita... Sana mas maaga kita hinanap" . Hinanap ko din siya even before pa. But this time around na nahanap na nya ako., I don't know what to feel. I just don't know what to feel.

Im in so much pain. I just can't love. I need to find my own way back into the world., so called love.

"Sorry kung nakasakit ako..alam ko wala akong karapatan manakit ng ibang tao dahil nasaktan ako sa kahapon ko"

Jacque Bermejo's Defense

Jacque Bermejo's Official Statement (citation here)

I am issuing this statement to clear my name in the current controversy in which I allegedly posted a highly insensitive and offensive message on the social networking website, Facebook, in relation to the victims of typhoon Ondoy that recently struck parts of the Philippines.

About two years ago, an anonymous source created these accounts using my identity, posting my personal details, my real pictures captioned roughly and attacking other people. Because of these incidents, I reported such abuses and sent my credentials to the administrators of such sites, particularly Facebook. I have been abused and am still being abused online in social networking websites such as Facebook, Friendster, Multiply etc.

In the early stages, I was advised by close friends to ignore the situation, saying this would simply go away. Unfortunately, it has not stopped. Hence, I filed a complaint with the Dubai Police about eight months ago hoping they could help me with my problem. Should anyone wish to check my statement, my case is still under investigation with said authorities.

Time passed and these sites continued to generate malicious, obscene and cruel messages that are widely exposed and relayed to the public under my name.

Yesterday, September 27th 2009, I received phone calls from my close friends regarding very alarming posts in the above mentioned websites that directly offended flood victims as a result of typhoon Ondoy..

These malicious statement(s) which are posted under account names Jacque or Jackie are not of my doing. It is unfortunate that such statements were maliciously attributed to me and I do sympathize and understand the adverse and somehow verbally violent reaction that has been elicited by such insensitive statements or posts. Rest assured, I have taken every legal step that can be done in this regard.

I too, have become a victim as much as those who may have lost their lives and properties to such a devastating natural calamity. This recent controversy has greatly affected my reputation, my family, and my friends. I am devastated and shocked at the extent my character, my personal information and private space have been violated.

I love you more than anything

"I love you more than anything"
By Oliver D. Lundag

It is so amazing when you are with me                           
I am breathless when you are not there for me               
The sounds of your voice revolves around me                
The sweetness of your care was captured me                  

The clouds move when the wind blows                           
When you look at me in your window                             
Your smile is like a beautiful rainbow                             
Light as the sun lights up my dark shadow                   

Once more you bring those smiles to me                           
I love it when you look straight back at me                   
If it supposed to be like this                                             
I will not ignore the chance to miss                                 

Once more you tell those three words to me                    
I love it when you straight up with honesty                 
When you say those things in my ear                                 
You always tell me what my heart wants to hear            

Wear your smile on your face                                              
Let's make things not hard to believe                                
Don't run away, you are the best place I can hide           
It is the best place when I'm by your side.                        

We can walk in the same direction                                  
You and I will feel this situation                                    
Forgiveness will be our satisfaction                                
With you my heart felt devotion                                      

The river might die in the summer                                   
But I will never die as a partner                                        
My heart will burn like a fire                                             
With you I want to live my life forever                                          

You are my strength at all times                                       
I want to eat with you at lunchtime’s                            
Have a date with you in dinnertimes                              
And share my feelings with you at downtimes                              

Sometimes I have been careless                                         
But you pull me out from darkness                                  
And save me from being senseless                                     
Thanks for your wonderful kindness                              

Without you I am nothing                                                
Thanks for keeping me breathing                                     
I know that this poem has an ending                                
But I love you more than anything...            

> Thanks Oli. Nice work ;)

Ondoy - GO TO HELL!

"Mabuti ng ikaw yung tumulong...
               kaysa ikaw yung tinutulungan"
                                                -mama (Pag me nanghihingi ng abuloy para sa patay)

"Super sarap mag swimming sa baha". Kala ko puro sarap lang. Wala kaming kuryente. Nawalan ng signal globe at sun sa bahay. Nakainom kami ng "Grandma at Redhorse" ang galing mag backstroke ng pinsan ko sa baha. The next day? Me kuryente na. Nakita ko yung video sa San Mateo., natameme na ako.. Ang saya ko kahapon. So tragic pala for many filipinos.,sorry. I begin to worry. Naalala ko si Joan "Jowanne" Manandeg., I care for this girl. Her family lives in Santolan, Pasig..All i can do now is pray for her..and somehow pray that this blog entry may help. Images are from "Ondoy - you fucking asshole" from


Tons of places to drop your help. Either look for "Sagip Kapamilya or Kapuso Foundation" Or if you can personally go to Cainta and Try and see and give how much you can help.

"Give what you can share...Spam na kung SPAM.."

Give it to the authorities. RED CROSS!

Jowanne asn ka na? ..worried na po ako...haaay

Love Program


import body.heart.soul.complexlife;

public class Complexlife extends InternalHeartAche {

private String YOU = "",ME = "";

private void Complexlife(){//start
YOU = (charm *) allocate (sizeof (myHeart));//You capture me with your charm
this.setSize(YOU);//you are in my heart now
while (LOVE !=  NULL){//while our love is not equal to zero
DISTANCE = new DISTANCE (distance);//pair distance
CARE = new CARE(YOU);//I care for you
MISS = new MISS(YOU);//I miss you
CRAZY = new CRAZY(ME);//crazy for you
catch(nullpointer exception You){}//I'll catch you
if (TEARS > SMILE){//but while tears is greater than smile
HATE++; //hate  
LOVE- -; //love lessen
TIME++; //time to think  
catch(nullpointer exception Me){// I'll still catch you
DIE = new DIE(ME);//I might die without you
return Complexlife;//start over again
 *** END of Complexlife

Thanks Oli. Great work! :D


Sinabi ko na kahapon
Ikay aking lilimutin
Ngunit ito ako ngayon
Nagbabalik ang damdamin
Makinig ka sana
Ayaw kitang pilitin
Aking winiwika
Nais ko lamang ay iyong dinggin
Di ko na alam kung ano pa ang kayang gawin
Luluhod na lang? Taimtim na mananalangin
Sana pag gising ko bukas
Wala na ang sakit na dalahin
Patuloy na mabubuhay hanggang
Luha ko ay kusang pawiin
Panahon ang tanging susukat sa akin
Dalawang bagay lang ang iisipin
Patuloy kang mahalin o tumalikod
at tuluyan kang limutin.

Asa ka naman?


 "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."  -Bob Ong.

This is real right? sometimes it's hard to see things the other way around. "Di porke tinext ka nya ng gudmorning, gudaftie, gudeve, kumaen ka na, ingat ka, tc, mwah and etc., eh mauulul ka na" hehehe.. There are just people who love to care for other people. Cheesy diba? Yeah, but people like these are just born to be sweet. Sometimes.. Many times. If you fall for these kind of people better start praying now that he or she is not someone just bugging around and trying to play people's heart. But they love playing people's heart and at the end of the day you fall, you loose. Maybe because your a somewhat kind of a stupid person who believe in simple words. I did believed before. I thought it was a somewhat "Motibo" but i was wrong. All she said to me is "Mabait lang talaga ako", What did i do? "Napalunok na lang ako at sinabi sa sarili ko - sobrang bait mo naman" 

Naisip ko tuloy:
1. Mura lang ang unli kaya masarap makipagtxtmate ng madaming madami (Kiti-kitxt type)
2. Me Sun Cellular naman. Tawag to the Max.(Sunnatic Type)
3. Mura lng ang rent sa computer shop. Mag YM ka man o mag FS ka o Facebook pa o twitter pa. So Affordable. (Internet Man)
4. Masarap mang Flirt lalo nat uto-uto naman ung tao.(Filthy Flirt)
5. Masarap ka kasama kasi mahilig ka manlibre. Libre mo ako ha! DQ!hahaha (Libre Type)
6. Masarap mang gate crush ng YM. Open mo account mo ng madami "ASL" to the max ka lang.(ASL dido)
7. Masarap mag pa asa. Lalo na't wala naman talagang pagasa! (Paasa Type)
8. "Wala akong magagawa masarap kaya yung me nagmamahal sayo" Kahit madami! (Lovapaloozer)
9. Lakad sa mall. Turo. Papa-ble. (Sugar Dad/Mom Type).
10. Masarap manakit. lalo na't nasaktan ako dati (Revenge Type)

Isa ka ba sa mga to? Asaness ka naman! Hahaha

Falling and Falling


Oh i miss her so
I think of falling again
But id rather say no

Her smile captures my heart
And i don't know how to start

Probably ill just keep my mouth shut.
Oh i cant breathe., I'm tongue tied
Everything in my world stops.

She's one in a million
meeting her gives you
thousands of reason

She's Intelligent
but sometimes she acts just like
an innocent.

Falling and Falling
Whew...I just cant 
continue my breathing..

p.s. Naks! Miss u Kreng :D haayst..hehehe.. tablan ka nmn ng pambobola ko! hahaha... hehehe...yan ah.hahaha. DQ ko? hahaha...

Cute mo dito...hahaha.. pa Brownies Temptations ka nmn!
hehehe..asn na c mik mik?hahaha

Yaman nito taga marilao... ganda ng bahay! hahahaha!

It was not your fault, Never was any of this your fault, It was mine.....


Dear Loved One,
I hate myself for hurting you,
I was selfish to have done so,
Selfish to hurt myself,
Selfish to hurt you,
I never thought about you as I should have,
I should have thought more,
Thought more about how it would effect you,
But no,
I did no such thing,
Now I regret it,
I regret dieing,
I regret taking a life,
Taking my own life,
And hurting you,
Now you are alone,
And your hurt,
No longer can I help you,
No longer can I comfort you,
No longer can I be there for you,
Dear Loved One,
I'm sorry,
It was not your fault,
Never was any of this your fault,
It was mine.....

Astig Oli. Lufet! Thanks!...ehehehe



"Ooops. Ang Cheesy nyo. Iba BLOG ko yan! lol"



I had so much young love the day that you walked into my life. A young love that ive been longing for. I had sleepless nights because of you. I remember the night that you asked me if im a good kisser and all i answered is "NO", hahahah. Because im really not. May be.

Your young love is so sweet that ants would be begging for our sweets. I love the way you love me. I love when call me "baby". lol. I dont know if you're just playing around or any. I love those nights wherein ill fall asleep saying and hearing "I love you baby" then you'll say "Lapit ka dito" and "Yakapin mo ko". I love those nights that you act like a child not wanting me to hang up the phone and you want to sleep beside me. I love it when you told me that you've been sharing stories of me to mom.

You have so much young love in your heart that every guy will be begging for. Im happy,. you fill my heart with so much hapiness. Im so blessed.

Though sometimes your young love scare the hell out of me. Im afraid that soon this young love will grow and just leave. I want to see you grow. Be a step behind you and catch you everytime you fall.

May be i have such a good talent on making threading these sweet words that a young heart would fall into. May be. But i was never loved back the way that you are loving me now. So young, So sweet. So fresh. I want you to know how thankful i am that you were there. I fall for someone and write immortal words. That someone is you Annea.

Your young sweet love is longingly.

I fall for you Annea but Annea never existed on this dimension. Annea was just a part of my desire for a young love experience. Soon ill meet Annea and be with her. Soon ill sit on her arms and rest on her peacefully.

Im suffering from love. A love that was never real and could only happen in my dreams.

Isa, Dalawa, Tatlo

Sino ba itong kausap ko
Dinig ko ang tibok ng puso mo
Isa, dalawa, tatlo
Kamay ko ay hawakan mo
Di man kita nakikita
Akin namang nadarama
Tayo'y iisa, nangangarap
Pagtagpuin at magkasama
Tanaw ko na ang bukas
Sanay hindi na ito magwakas
Panaginip man o hindi
Ikaw lang ang tanging sanhi
Buhay ko'y naging makahulugan
Dinggin mo, ikaw lang ang
Tanging dahilan

Letter (In my frozen hand)

Your Letter in my Frozen Hand
by : Oliver Lundag

"I hold your letter in my frozen hand.. staring on the lines.. reminisce each and every time. Its freezing...i need your warm hands"


I hold your letter in my frozen hand
The last line was long, as long as it burns
My look carries on
With every word another feeling dies
I'm left here in the dark, no memories of you
I close my eyes, it's killing me
We die when love is dead, it's killing me
We lost a dream we never had
The world in silence should forever feel alone
'Cause we are gone and we will never overcome, it's over now
Vultures are waiting for what's left of us
What can we take? It all has no worth
If we lose our trust
They're coming closer, want you and me
I can feel their claws, let me go now
Try to break free, it's killing me
We die when love is dead, it's killing me
We lost a dream we never had
The world in silence should forever feel alone
'Cause we are gone and we will never overcome
It's over now, now, now

Astig! lol..Thanks dude for allowing me to post one of your masterpiece! nice writing.


"Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo."

Bob Ong Words. Sarap :)

Isuko mo na lang habang may natitira pang pagmamahal sa puso mo. Kung totoong pagmamahal ang naramdaman mo for sure tumanim yun sa puso mo. "Real love is always deeply rooted to your heart" as i said. Cry as much as you can kasi you did love someone. After crying go back to the times na ramdam mo ang pagmamahal nya sayo. Smile. Fill your heart with great memories instead of being bitter because of so much pain.

Smile and believe that someway somehow you'll find all the reasons why painful things happen in someones life.

Say Thanks, for once you were loved by this person.

Be Happy and Keep fighting for tomorrow;)

Bookmarked from this blogsite(journal) : princesskumod

"Tada kimi wo aishiteru. Tada sorekadda yokatta noni"

Boy and Girl.txt (Hangover)

Boy: Helow
Girl: Oi
Boy: Musta, Asn ka?
Girl: Pauwi pa lng galing sa extra work. Sayang eh.
Boy: Ngek.Okay..Ingat
Girl: Salamat
Boy: Ur Welcome
Girl: Ano ginagawa mo?
Boy: Wala naman..nakahiga lang me iniicp.
Girl: Ahh..ano naman yun? sino?
Boy: Ikaw
Girl: haaay.nako ka.,wag ka nga epal
Boy: Di nga
Girl: Okay. Bahala ka sa buhay mo
----------------------after 5mins---------------------
Boy: Hehe..Nga pla..Regarding sa sinabi mo sakin dati? totoo ba yun?
Girl: Ano yun?
Boy: Yung sa Coffe Shop. Sabi mo hintayin kita..8 years from now. Totoo ba yun?
Girl: Ha? Sinabi ko yun? Hindi ko na matandaan kung lumabas nga ba yun sa bibig ko eh., Joke lang yun. hehe
Boy: Ganun?
Girl: Oo. Ikaw naman. Pano kung sabihin ko sayo na hintayin mo ako pag 50 na ako.. hihintayin mo pa din ako? Baliw! Joke lang yun!
Boy: Oo. Kasi mahal kita, Naniwala ako nung sabihin mo na hintayin kita eh.
Girl: Ganon? Sorry.Joke lng yun.
Girl: Sori tlga. Di ko alam na sineryoso mo pala yun.
Boy: Salamat
Girl: Sori
Sobrang sakit? Paano nagagawa ng ibang tao gawing joke lng ang puso at pagmamahal ng iba para sa kanila? hahaha....Ops? Di si basha at popoy yan. Hehehe
This writing is so simple. The boy loved the girl so unselfishly that he even believe on every words that the girl told her. But those words turned out to be the biggest joke of his miserable life. Now who gets to suffer on this joke? Both of them? but who suffered most? Who's fault is it? The boy who loved? The girl who joked?

Favorite DC Lines

Craving for perfect song lines that could slit your throat and cut your wrist?lol. Take some dosage of DC, wear a pair of sneakers. Sing and Die while listening to songs of Dashboard Confessionals! sOOoo EMO!

"We are the only ones who feel it. Tonight we drink. Tonight we dance. We are the last ones who can hear it...heaven is here" -heaven here

"You get one look. I'll show you something that the knife took. A bit too early for my own good. Now let's not speak of it again"  -dont wait

"When every move and each impulse brings clarity to stay like this is everything you’ll ever need" -rooftops and invitations

"Breathe, dont you want to breathe. I know that you are strong enough to handle what i need my capillaries scream. Theres nothing left to feed on my body needs a reason to cross that line will you carry me there one more time" -reason to believe

"Defense is paper thin, Just. One touch and I'll be in, too deep now to ever swim against the current so let me slip away" -vindicated

"As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and you're making out. And as for me I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone, making out." -screaming infidelities

"Hand out the window floatin' on air just a flip of the wrist and im wavin' you goodbye" - so long, so long

"We're stronger where the strain had broken us and there is fight in us, I know that it will take more than
a heavy rain to silence us when there's so much for us. I know." - the widows peak

"So sneakers or flip-flops? I'm starting to panic, (wait wait) Remember she asked you, remember to breathe. and everything will be okay." -remember to breathe

"But for now I'll look so longingly, waiting... For you to want me, for you to need me, for you to notice me" -for you to notice

"Pouring over photographs. I'm living in your letters. Breathe deeply from this envelope it smells like you and I can't be without that scent, It's filling me with all you mean to me to me." -living in your letters

I love DC, they put a mark in my life...though some people say that they are way too depressing. For me, Chris Carraba is genious since his further seems forever days. Screaming deadly:)

Candles - Hey Monday


Favorite line:

"Been black and blue before
There’s no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback’s such a waste
You’re invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face"

Nice music. Nice Lyrics! Cassade of Hey Monday live @ Popstar Magazine

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Di lang ikaw (emo sa LRT)

Early morning, may be around 645am. Hehe.. Abad Santos. Maluwang naman yung tren. Skip train kasi. Skip ba o Escape? Bahala na kayo.hehehe.. Para sa akin, Skip train.

Nakaupo ako kasi nga maluwang diba. Tayuman. Me magandang babae na sumakay. May be around 5 flat lang ang height nya. Pagtititigan mo sya maganda sya. Lalo na para sa akin. hehehe. Simple lang naman ang suot niya. "Full Black" naka converse na sneakers pa.. hehe. "Emo Punk" eka nga nila. Maputi siya kaya bagay naman. Nakapusod buhok astig tapos yung porma nya parang pang korean ung may vest. este ewan ko ba kung anung tawag dun. Tapos me nakapasak sa tenga nya. Earphone.

Doroteo Jose., Madaming sumakay sa doroteo. Umusog sya ng ilang hakbang papalapit sa akin. Naririnig ko na yung tugtog niya. Tinitingnan ko siya para siyang bumubulong. Kumakanta pala. Mejo na palakas. "This heart it beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours". Aba My Heart ng Paramore. Astig.

Pedro Gil. Medyo maluwang na. Bumaba na si miss emo. Napansin ko me nakatali na bandage sa left wrist nya. hehe. "shit emo nga"

Quirino. Naisip ko yung mga araw na ganun din ako. Tinititigan ko siya at nakita ko na ganun din ako dati. Tanging mga kanta lang ang pakiramdam ko na nakakaintindi sa nararamdaman ko. Maaring Until now me ganun pa akong natitira ung SO EMO na part.. Sa puso at isip - emo. Hehehe. Nararamdaman ko yung lungkot niya. Alam mo naman mga emo. Kita agad, Hehehe..

Gil Puyat. Babaaan na. Sakay ng bus. Naisip ko. Di lang pala ako ang malungkot sa mundo. Sasabihin ko sana sa kanya "Hindi lang ikaw ang emo" wag mo sirain buhay mo dahil lang sa pag eemo. Miserable ka na nga ppka miserable ka pa. Naisip ko. Oo galit ako sa kanya kasi lahat binigay ko pero parang wala pa din yun para sa kanya pero ano pang magagawa ko eh sa totoo namang mahal ko siya? mahal ko lahat ng tungkol sa kanya.? kahit masakit?. Ganun talaga ang buhay.

Well take this

"Hindi lang ikaw ang emo sa mundo kaya ayusin mo buhay mo. Pakamatay ka na lng kung di mo nakikita na me mga tao pa sa paligid mo na handang magmahal sayo. Don't be a looser. I mean - don't loose hope. Soon you'll get what you deserve. God has always something good in reserve. Hope and Pray."

Paseo na. Baba na ako. Isusulat ko na lng ang mga salitang ito sa blog ko. Sana mabasa mo;)

Explain the Unexplainable(Favorite Lines)

I am writing these not to put agony or harm for anybody. But i am searching for some explanations in life and i stumbled on this quotes that gives explanation and realization why some uncertainty happens in someone's life.

The following lines were taken from authors, bloggers and even lyrics.!lol

“Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya..” - Bob Ong
--Siguro nga. Sabi ko nga ke Kreng. Masanay ka na mag dump ng guys. Kesa naman mag maganda ka pa kung ayaw mo naman talaga sya. At lis isang sakitan lang. Magic word lang yan. At least di mo siya pinaasa.hehe

"Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure." -Oprah
--Nice quote. Today is the only thing that we have. Today is painful. People just cant smile and say "okay" tapos okay na lahat. Di ganun kadali yun.

"I know that you have left me, I cannot promise not to cry, But I do love you my friend,I guess this is my last goodbye." -Amanda Linzi
--Well said. No explanations needed.

"I've got to walk away while there's still hope. Learn to erase the love I know and let you go cause what I thought was love was only lies. Taking what you want, left me behind as my heart dies" - Last Goodbye by Trading Yesterday

--People should believe on hope. Dont be afraid to let go. Keep believing for a better tomorrow.

"Pu**** Ina naman basha. Ang tigas mo naman...Mahal na Mahal kita. Ang sakit sakit na"
- Popoy to Basha, One more chance
--Siguro nga ganun ka Pu**** Ina ka mahal ni popoy si bash.hehehe  

Suggest your favorite lines people. Feel free to post back and comment!



Time to stop.

When the pain is excruciating. Stop it!

Its 4:23 PM., Monday September 7th of 2009

Rainy Afternoon.

Special Non Working Holiday

STOP IT. Ill stop my heart now.

Ill find a place where i can lay and give my heart for others insensitivity.

Ill give my life to those who needs ressurection          

Thats good enough to hear those words. I am the only fucking person that must be blame. I put my self on this situation. I should have never dreamed of things that was never meant to be mine. I should have listened to people's words instead of listening to my stupid heart. I'm the most fucking stupid person who believed in so much love. A love story that's only meant for movies.

It was never a mistake. Its a risk taken by me. Its a choice that i put myself into.

I did everything i can but now i know i should stop. Ill take some high dosage of "bitter-pills" and lie down on the floor. Ill crush down the house that i wanted to give you and built another new. Ill buy a car and take my lover for a ride. Ill work on photography and discover how beautiful life is offering me. Ill change my phone number and get away for an escape. I don't need anyone's advice because Ive been here so many times.

For now ill make a stop. Thank you.