Itsabagslife

Early morning, may be around 645am. Hehe.. Abad Santos. Maluwang naman yung tren. Skip train kasi. Skip ba o Escape? Bahala na kayo.hehehe.. Para sa akin, Skip train.

Nakaupo ako kasi nga maluwang diba. Tayuman. Me magandang babae na sumakay. May be around 5 flat lang ang height nya. Pagtititigan mo sya maganda sya. Lalo na para sa akin. hehehe. Simple lang naman ang suot niya. "Full Black" naka converse na sneakers pa.. hehe. "Emo Punk" eka nga nila. Maputi siya kaya bagay naman. Nakapusod buhok astig tapos yung porma nya parang pang korean ung may vest. este ewan ko ba kung anung tawag dun. Tapos me nakapasak sa tenga nya. Earphone.

Doroteo Jose., Madaming sumakay sa doroteo. Umusog sya ng ilang hakbang papalapit sa akin. Naririnig ko na yung tugtog niya. Tinitingnan ko siya para siyang bumubulong. Kumakanta pala. Mejo na palakas. "This heart it beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours". Aba My Heart ng Paramore. Astig.

Pedro Gil. Medyo maluwang na. Bumaba na si miss emo. Napansin ko me nakatali na bandage sa left wrist nya. hehe. "shit emo nga"


Quirino. Naisip ko yung mga araw na ganun din ako. Tinititigan ko siya at nakita ko na ganun din ako dati. Tanging mga kanta lang ang pakiramdam ko na nakakaintindi sa nararamdaman ko. Maaring Until now me ganun pa akong natitira ung SO EMO na part.. Sa puso at isip - emo. Hehehe. Nararamdaman ko yung lungkot niya. Alam mo naman mga emo. Kita agad, Hehehe..

Gil Puyat. Babaaan na. Sakay ng bus. Naisip ko. Di lang pala ako ang malungkot sa mundo. Sasabihin ko sana sa kanya "Hindi lang ikaw ang emo" wag mo sirain buhay mo dahil lang sa pag eemo. Miserable ka na nga ppka miserable ka pa. Naisip ko. Oo galit ako sa kanya kasi lahat binigay ko pero parang wala pa din yun para sa kanya pero ano pang magagawa ko eh sa totoo namang mahal ko siya? mahal ko lahat ng tungkol sa kanya.? kahit masakit?. Ganun talaga ang buhay.

Well take this


"Hindi lang ikaw ang emo sa mundo kaya ayusin mo buhay mo. Pakamatay ka na lng kung di mo nakikita na me mga tao pa sa paligid mo na handang magmahal sayo. Don't be a looser. I mean - don't loose hope. Soon you'll get what you deserve. God has always something good in reserve. Hope and Pray."

Paseo na. Baba na ako. Isusulat ko na lng ang mga salitang ito sa blog ko. Sana mabasa mo;)

Dearest Reon,


Hello there,

Its been a while since i last saw your tears. At last i'm going to have quiet nights that i could sleep and not to think if you are shedding tears underneath your eyelids. You changed my life by letting me in through the deepest space inside your heart. I remember that day when you asked me to wrote you a poem, so that you can hear what my tied tongue has to say. It took me 6 hours to put a smile on your pretty face as i stand shaking in front of you while reading those words written in a small piece of paper. It's not hard to get it, you smiled at me like we are on a Romeo and Juliet play and that's the start of what we called "new beginnings".

We were wrong. We became more miserable. We cant keep up to the pace that life has given us. I became more busy and busy just to give you those promises that i made. I did not notice that the time flies as i make a sprint towards our dream life. I want you to know that i do regret those times that i could sit beside you and have a chalk talk with you. Ask you how was your day and how many bullshits you run unto.

Now our life has changed. You're gone. You took away everything that life has to gave you. But i know your happier now. Stay happy now. I know you are safe where ever you may be. Let me live a more miserable life without you. Soon ill be there. Ill rest in your arms and tell you stories about our lives.

I miss you. Soon ill be with you.


                                                                                                                   ---your emo friend
                                                                                                                                      Jazel

Someone asked me this and it kept bugging my mind last night. "Where does real love exist?" he told me that for him real love is only on peoples mind. To make it clearly what he said is

If only holding
you at the hand is
enough.,I would grab
hold it

This never ending
tears could have not
happened, if only
i forged ever chances.

Now we're so so
broken, i don't know if
i can fix this, if we can
fix this.

Our promises
we're just a burden
Now i don't know
what's next to
happen.

I told you that ill love you
through every changing
seasons, but now i
can't find any single
reason.

I thought that this
love would last,
but now its all written
as scars from the past.

P.S. My love for you was so strong,
it could even destroy me=(